RAAAAAAAANT

Considering nobody looks at this anymore because I never post, it's time to spill out some healthy rants. K? K.
*sigh* I hate having to rant about relationships, but it seems like I have to.
A dear friend of mine decides it's a good idea to go for a previous ex of mine, and because I value my friend's happiness over mine, I was all "Oh yeah it's cool with me." No, it really wasn't. I fucking hate this fact.
Mainly because I wasn't good enough. I was not the guy that could make her happy. I was not good enough at all.
But all of a sudden he is? Am I just that guy that you could just shit on and expect to be happy about it? I was basically just that guy you could date for a bit and just throw away because you apparently just couldn't do it. But now you can. That's cool and everything I guess.
This situation is going to interfere with our bro time. Because every time I go over, all I'm going to see is that guy who is better than Jake. I won't be able to play a simple game of magic without wanting to leave. I won't be able to listen to mad chill music without just wanting to break out a window. It's stupid. I hate how I am about this, but it's happening, and it needs to end.
I also enjoy how I try to keep in contact with you just to be friends, but obviously I'm really not one to you. I was the fallback guy so you could start off better with everyone else.
But me.
You know, if I was tragically killed in a car accident or something, you wouldn't fucking care. You really wouldn't. Because everyone else out there can be your friend. I don't have to be here for you to be happy. You have him now. That's all you need. I was at least somewhat a good-hearted Christian who didn't do anything horrible. But somebody who enjoys weed and is Atheist beyond belief is better? Hmm.


Oh well. Whatever floats your fucking boat. I'm glad that I can just walk around knowing I'm the biggest piece of shit to you ever. I'm really fucking happy for you both. I fucking hope things are just the best for both of you. Because I'm apparently a fucking good friend.

Oh well.

I plan on going on a "friend hiatus" here after a few weeks or so. Once I get my truck. I plan on shutting everyone out of my head except for Adam, Bryce, and Kelsy. This will go on for about a month. Either everyone will realize how better off they are without me or rape my phone. Either way, hopefully this will give me time to clear my head and work out. I need to lose weight. Hopefully people will leave me the fuck alone.