I need to leave

I'm starting to realize the source of my depression. I'm starting to realize what I truly need.

I need to get the fuck out of here.

I hate being here. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I'm one of those guys who actually considers the thoughts of others in a serious matter, stays up really late JUST to get a few laughs out of Tumblr, has a child's card game as his hobby, and is a huge video game geek. Nobody wants that here, so I need to leave. Soon.

Once college is done, I'm saving up money and leaving as soon as fucking possible. Yeah, some will actually miss me, but I really need to consider what's best for me. And where I plan on moving?

Heh. It won't be anywhere in Illinois.

I plan on moving fucking far away as possible. Of course I'll keep in touch with people, but I really do feel ever so worthless living here. It's as if I actually don't belong anywhere here at. all.

Of course I'll miss quite a few friends of mine. Will, Cory, Scott, other Scott, Deven, Keenan, and many others. But of course I'd miss Kelsy the most. It's upsetting to realize that I'd be leaving them behind, but it's what I need.

New places, a new life, a new future.

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